Harder then it seems...(open)

[Natasha Black]

Being a werewolf was harder then it seemed, late night patrols, Going to school and missing sleep, they were all beginning to catch up with Natasha. She had struggled to keep herself awake thought class and she was finally glad it was lunch time, Maybe she could just nap though lunch on the cafeteria table. Natasha had not see anyone in the hall, so she headed down ot the cafeteria, If it was one thing she knew the guys would hungry and in need of a meal. Not feeling to hungry Natasha folded her arms and place them on the table top before resting her head maybe she could catch a few minutes shut eye before someone came along.
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Natasha was sitting at the beach, the waves were crashing against the rocks, the weather was warm and sunny so she was tanning in the sun. She ran her feet in the sand and looked at herself. She was waring her purple bikini top and her favorite pair jean shorts. Natasha thought she was alone with not one around until she saw Quil, she couldn't help to smile. He was everything she need and ever wanted, She knew he was her future, her soul mate.


Natasha got out of the sand and walked over in Quil's direction but every step she took closer to him he seemed ot get farther away. She she was running toward him as fast as she could but she still could not get to him. That when she saw her, not any woman per say but a silhouette of woman wrapping her arms around him...No...no Quil... she tried ot call for him he turned at looked he way but did not say anything back ...

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"Please No.... Don't.... I love you." She said as she felt and arm on her shoulder. She did not realize but tears were running down her face as she was awaken. She hoped it was someone she knew how had awaken her she would hate if it was a total stranger .

[Axel Powell]

The wind ruffled Axel's untamed hair as he stood, inhaling the freshness of the morning. He had gotten used to the two hours of sleep each night. In fact, he believed that was what made him stronger. Testing his own will power.
His to-do list for the day was pretty empty. A single thing, to see if he could get a job anywhere. Being a wolf, there is not much of an income, if any at all. Only the satisfactory reward of protecting people.

Rez Shop Clerk
La Push High - Gym Teacher
Quileutte Coffee Shop Assistant

Well, I suppose I could give it a shot. On the plus side, if I do get the job, apart from the money i'll get. I can also keep in touch with the others.

Axel jumped off the sidewalk and crossed the road into La Push High. Wow, this is strange. Were his immediate thoughts as he entered the reception.
After his interview, which he thought went half decently apart from the fact that they kept asking his age, which he obviously couldn't say properly. Did they think he was too young? Old enough to be in high school? How ironic.

He found the cafeteria, after searching long and hard whilst he stomach growled at him.
FOOD!

He was about to queue in line for food, when he noticed Natasha on a near by table, with her head down. Really? My better half would prefer to check if she is okay, rather than eat?
He walked up beside her, only to hear "Please No.... Don't.... I love you." He placed his hand on her shoulder, gently trying to wake her. Unless she loved him, which was unlikely, she was asleep for his best bet.

As the tears rolled down her cheek, Axel sat beside her.
"I never knew you loved me. I'm thrilled, marry me?" He tried to lighten the mood, softly laughing after he spoke. Axel wiped the tears from her cheek. "What's wrong Tash?" He sympathetically serenaded.

(OOC: Can be deleted if you want.)

[Natasha Black]

Natasha thought her arms around Axel shoulder and just hugged him for a moment as she whipped away her tears then she let him go . " I'm sorry, Its nothing just a bad dream, and this must be the worst place to sleep. " Natasha could see a few people looking at her, she knew she probably looked like a wreck. She need more sleep but between school, home and shape shifter life thing were beginning ot feel difficult. "I think I just need to balance my time better,sleep, get used to all this..well my life." Natasha ran her finger in her hair trying to fix it a bit then adjusting her clothes. " The problems is more trying ot stop myself from dreaming then to sleep, If I did not dream I think I could sleep fine. My subconscious mind just resits I guess." Natasha then turned her head a bit wondering why Axel was at the school did he enroll to be a student. " I am glad it was you who woke me up but why are you here?" Now after her little nap she was beginning ot feel hungry the smell of french fires and pizza in the cafeteria would be enough to wake up anybody's hunger.

[Axel Powell]

The shock of Natasha’s arms around his shoulders made Axel jump a little. He was about to ‘try’ and comfort her, when she suddenly moved away. “I don’t mean to poke my muzzle in where it’s not wanted, but it doesn’t happen to have anything to do with Quil, does it? Or maybe the amount of clothes you have gone through when you phase, you do have quite a short temper.” With an angelic smile on his face, Axel laughed a few times. “Well, resorting to school is pretty sad. I could always pretend to be your dad or something and say you’re off ill. That wouldn’t actually be a lie, you look pretty ill.” Noticing Natasha look around at the sea of faces that had now laid eyes on her, made Axel slightly irate. “Do people not mind their own business these days?” He asked loud enough for the people closest to turn away instantly.

“To be honest Tash, I can’t give you much advice. I didn’t have to juggle with the inconvenience of school, friends, family, or sleep for that matter, when I was ‘younger’.” Axel said using air quotes on younger. “I slept when I wanted to sleep and had nothing stopping me, until I started coming across more and more vampires. I averaged about only two hours of sleep a night then, which is all I get these days now because of it.” He spoke quietly so the surrounding people wouldn’t hear him talk about the myths that he included in his sentence. “If you want, I’ll take your patrol shifts for the next couple of days, let you catch up on sleep and get your head sorted.” He offered, knowing that he would probably enjoy having something to do.

“Good question. I actually came for a job – gym teacher, because I need some money. The only thing is I think they think that I’m too young for the job. I just find that totally ironic, but whoop-di-doo. If they do think I’m too young, I guess I could enrol, saying that I thought they were interviewing me for an education and gym is my favourite subject. I haven’t had an education in years, well not in math, English and science anyway...” Axel’s stomach began growling again. “Uh, Tash. Do you mind if I go and get some food? I’m starving.”

[Natasha Black]

Natasha bit her lip and look to the floor. " My temper is not too bad I just dislike when the vampires poke their noses into places they do not belong....and it does have to do with Quil but more in fear of loosing him, As the days go by after I was told about imprinting at first I was not really worrying about it but I guess I really am worried." Natasha looked up at Axel. after he mentioned her looking like she was ill and shook her head. " Everyone know now might as well tell you Billy is my dad, genetically.. The school knows him well and know I am living there so I think they will not think you are my father also you look to young. But thank for telling me I look sick. " Natasha punched him in the arm a bit ' I agree thought I feel like I look terribly awful."She watched at the student turned away, they way she was always with Quil all the time they might she and he broke up looking the way she did.

Natasha listen as Axel explained a bit about his past and how he did not have to worry about school and commitments really." Life back then must have been easier, no female wolves around I feel like I complicate the pack's lives and all seeing how I imprinted on another pack member. I don't want show them I am weak. I am going to patrol like I am suppose ot until one of them realize how burned out I am. I will just stay home from school tomorrow or something." Natasha stretched a bit pulling her shoulders back then relaxing them. She sighed and shook her head when he told her the school thinks he looked to young.

" you at least look twenty five at most, I think. It should be old enough to be a Gym teacher. Your look the part of a gym Teacher also but I think Xion has applied for the job also. I think they will give it to him if anything. You would both do a good job though, and If i had not imprinted I would be swooning over both of you also. I think if you don' get the job you should enroll." Natasha was trying to cheer herself up and Axel being there to talk to was helping greatly. Natasha stomach began ot growl and Axel asking he he could get some food could come at a better time. " Ya sure Ax, I think i should eat something also."

[Axel Powell]

"I suppose that makes sense... I don't know Quil as well as you, but if he follows after his great grandfather in any way, he will find a way to make everyone happy. On the other hand, if he doesn't you've always got me." Axel chuckled quietly after nudging Natasha.

"Oh." Axel was speechless, he remembered Veronica say that something was happening with Natasha, Jacob, Embry and Billy, but he wouldn't have guessed that. "You look sick... In a good way." He said slightly apologetically, placing a huge smile on his face after she punched him. "You don't look terribly awful, you just need some you time. Sleep, bath... You know that sort of thing."

"I bet, with female wolves, the pack would have had way more fun, you don't complicate things, you make them better. You aren't the only wolf the imprint on someone. Just because it is another pack member, it doesn't make you the difficult one. Just think of all the testosterone the constant teenage wolves have in them. They're the difficult ones, myself probably included." Axel said with a grin on his face. "Tash, promise me you won't exert yourself proving you're not weak. As for me looking too young. I'll take it as a compliment."

"I haven't met Xion, but he's probably better suited to the job. The idea of enrolling is growing on me anyway." I can see Veronica more that way, even though that is probably not the best idea.
"Ok, food it is." Axel stood up holding his hand out for Natasha.

[Natasha Black]

Natasha listen to All of what Axel had ot say about her not being, the difficult one but still she somewhat seen it that way. a lot of it might have been because all the stuff that happen in between Sam and Leah that made her thing so. " Okay, I promise I wont overexert myself, but I wont let you take over my shift you not even Sam's pack anyway. you should have to take over for me. "

Taking Axel hand Natasha smile began to show of her face more without forcing it, Axel words were really cheering her up more then she thought. " Sure I always got you but I think your just a little out of my age range." Natasha laughed. " Thanks for the offer thought maybe It will be best for me to talk to Quil tell him how i been feeling. I bet he know there is something up. When I phase and he or the others are phased also I don't think about them. there are some thing a girl does not want to share with everyone and one of those things is my fear of loosing Quil, I know Jacob is worried about it also though. He is actually more worried about me."

Thought of how Leah felt about Sam leaving her began ot fill her mind . I won't be like Leah if it happens, I can be I can't let the pack go thought that pain with me . Her mind then focused it self back to what he said before they got up. " I guess your right I need to have some me time, maybe i just skip out the afternoon go home and relax a bit. So far Not many of the guys have seem me maybe they will even forget I was here for the day. Natasha Stomach began to rumble and she rubbed it a bit. "But I am eating first one less thing ot do after I depart for school of the afternoon. Natasha waited in line patiently then remembered she did not have any money on her. She looked up at Axel and smiled "Are you buying my pockets are empty?" Natasha reached her hands in to each one turning them inside out. "See."

[Axel Powell]

Axel listened carefully to Natasha promise to not hurt herself. "I might not be in Sam's pack, but I can still help out a friend. I think..." He raised an eyebrow, thinking of when he was actually in a pack. He snapped out of his daze and looked at Natasha, a small smile crept onto her face.

As Axel pulled Natasha up, the smile became more apparent. "Oh, that hurts. My age shouldn't rule your decision." Axel acted melodramatic. Laughing whilst poking Natasha's arm. "Talking to Quil is probably the best idea. I think keeping all of your feelings hidden will eventually break you." He looked around the cafeteria and inhaled the food scent. "Jake should be worried, I am and I've only justish met you."

"You do that, just relax." He began walking towards the queue with Natasha at his side. "If I see any of the guys, I can tell them where you've gone if you like." Axel heard Natasha's stomach and instantly began laughing. "Hungry are we?" They reached the line and as Natasha turned her pockets inside out, Axel sighed slightly. "I came here to get more money, I end up forking out more cash." He smiled slightly and asked, "What are you having?"

[Natasha Black]

Hearing Axel sigh slightly and make the money comment Natasha scrunched her lips together before biting down on the bottom one. "Maybe just a slice of pizza I wouldn't want to break your bank, but if you want me to pay you back Ax I can." Just then Natasha mind went back to being starred at and she laughed." I bet the girls that were looking at me there were just looking because they are jealous because I can still look like crap and strange cute guys talk tome. that must be because I am always hanging out with the cute boys with the muscles. But if they ask I will tell them your my brother, that way if you interested all you have to is flash a smile and show off you muscles."Natasha reaches up and squeezed Axel arm" you don't even have ot flex to show how big you guns are." Natasha joked then let go and yawned.

The line was moving slowly so wanting to know a bit more about Axel she searched for her mind for a question she could ask that would maybe give he more in site on who he is. " Um Ax what was the pack like back then,you think it was be any different then it is today? " Natasha stomach rumbled for a second time it almost sound like a growl. " I guess that song hungry like a wolf could apply to my stomach. " Natasha let out a small chuckle and blushed. "I bet Quil would have liked that one. " Thinking about him again made her let out a sigh she was missing him very much and after such a dream earlier she was hoping she saw him soon.

[Axel Powell]

"Tash." Axel stopped in his tracks, turned to be infront of her and put his hands on Natasha's shoulders. "You seriously think I am going to even let you pay me back? No way." His serious facial expression disintegrated into a cheerful smile. "So you want pizza. Anything else?" Axel asked kindly, still smiling.
"Ha, you called me cute. Do you say that about all old men?" Axel teased, "Those girls should be jealous of you. When you look... ill, you still look very nice." As Natasha gripped Axel's arm and mentioned the girls being interested in him, he laughed. "Thanks for the offer, but I don't think they would like me personally, if you somehow found out your boyfriend was decades older than you, what would you do?" Axel listened to the long yawn Natasha gave and let out a single laugh. "Like I said Miss Natasha Tired, you need to sleep"


Natasha's question about the previous pack was a surprise to Axel, "Honestly, there's absolutely nothing that is the same. Firstly, there were no females, there were only four of us, there was no where near as much drama and many of the Quileutte's knew about the whole wolf thing, but none of that made it worse. It was fun...
Then, all of the others found their soul mates and moved on. To me, the world seemed a lot smaller, everyone I cared about left one by one. I promised your great grandfather and the others to protect the human race from vampires and such creatures. Since then, i've been alone. Until now that is."


"Wow, you really are hungry!" Axel replied to the growl from Natasha's stomach. When Natasha mentioned about how Quil would have liked her hungry like a wolf joke, Axel instantly put his arm over her shoulder. "Listen to me, don't beat yourself up over him. I know he is your imprintee, but if you do let him take over your life, you will end up going insane or something." He removed his arm, gave a big cheesy grin and moved further up the line.

[Natasha Black]

" Well" Natasha started " If I found out my boyfriend was decades older then me and he looked as good as you I wouldn't mind." Natasha said to a response to his question. She know if she did not want to age all she had to do was stop phasing but she currently could not see it in her future. She listened as he went on about the past Natasha wondered if one day would she be explaining the past to a future pack member, only time would tell.

" You know Axel just as you said you will be here for me I am here for you, if you where a friend of my great grandfather then your my friend to. I will always be here to talk to if your lonely ," Alex then asked her if she wanted anything else to else Natasha shook her head before realizing she would like a drink. " ..Maybe a can of ice tea please the sugar might wake me up a bit."

"Hey now ! " Natasha said with a bit of an attitude. " He does not run my life, I Just miss him when he is not around it is my own fault thought he is all I think about. Maybe it is more then just imprinting, I kind of liked him before, maybe there was something more to it. Wait till you imprint there is something more to it then you think. Your who life become devoted to that person. that is the reason why your pack is gone."

[Axel Powell]

“Maybe you would, maybe you wouldn’t. You also have a secret that many humans wouldn’t believe unless they saw it with their two eyes. So if you found out that I was decades older than yourself you would probably at least believe me, others would probably think that I’m crazy or something.” Axel sighed, partly because he realized that he would not have anyone in his life because of his age, and partly because the queue was taking forever.

He listened to what Natasha said, shocked by what she had said. “Really?” Axel asked in reply. That was exactly what he needed to hear. Something to raise his confidence level.
“Ice tea it is.” As they furthered up the queue, Axel reached into his back pocket to bring out his wallet. It didn’t have too much money in there, but more than enough to by cafeteria food.

“No! I didn’t mean it like that.” He put both arms on her shoulders, trying to stop her going on about it, he failed.
“Wait till you imprint there is something more to it then you think. Your life becomes devoted to that person. That is the reason why your pack is gone."
At that moment, Axel’s life seemed to stop, everything he’d done in his life was pointless, his friends and family had all gone; Natasha was right. Maybe imprinting was more, but he had never really looked for anyone that he thought he could truly love, until Veronica came along, but why would she want him anyway, a decrepit old man?
He came back into reality, his facial expression sad – lonely. “You’re right. I’m sorry.” They finally made to the front of the queue. Axel paid for the food for the two of them and walked over to the table they were previously at. As old memories fluttered across Axel’s mind, he just wanted to know one thing. “Tash... What is it like? To imprint on someone that is.”

[Natasha Black]

"Yes really I do mean it Axel, Your being a part of Ephraim pack then your like family to me Axel, I hope you can see my as c cousin or something. " Axel then said he would get her an ice tea also and she smiled. " thanks cuz" She added happily. Just then the way she reacted about what he said about Quil and her stating facts she realized she was being a bit rude about the whole thing. Pk i am sorry i shouldn't have said it like that Axel I am so rude.

In to time they were at the front of the line and Axel paid and Natasha took her pizza and her drink from him. Thanks again Axel, " She smiled and took her seat. When he brought up imprinting and wanted her to explain Natasha let out a little smile. " so many other people had asked me this question already but even still it is still hard to explain. " Natasha wanted to express what is was like to Axel in a way that he could know how it feel all on his own. She did not know how start but she close her eyes for a second trying to find something that relates to how beautiful and wonderful it could be for him.

"ok now close you eyes and don't think about anything but the dark, in that darkness is your old life, old relationships, memories, adventures, dream. Seeing them in the dark may seem like it sucks but it wont for long. Now think about the first time you saw a sunset rising off the water, how beautiful it is, think about the colors and how it warms of the dull blue of the sky. now that black you saw before that is the stuff i told you to think about in the darkness. the sun that is you imprintee. With something so beautiful in front of you the blue stuff as in past relationships, memories, adventures don't really mean much to you anymore. What does is the sunset, you imprintee, and you love her for everything that she is. Natasha stopped speaking for a moment so he could absorb it all in. It was really a lot to take in . Now that feeling you have, imagine that everyday, every time you see your imprintee. that is what it is like. Natasha open the her drink and took a sip she looked over at Axel hoping the way that she explained it made sense to him she often tended to ramble when someone asked her about imprinting experience.

[Axel Powell]

‘You’re like family to me Axel’. Those words seemed to be all Axel could hear. The queue appeared to vanish and the lights in the hall faded. He had never had anyone say he was like family before. Emphriam had thought it, along with the rest of the old pack, but hearing it aloud put a new perspective on life for Axel. Until now he had felt unwanted and not needed.
It all flashed back into place after a few moments, the queue had shortened and he and Tasha moved forward slightly. “Don’t apologise, silly.” He chuckled quietly. "It's not your fault."Axel finally reached the front of the queue, ordered and paid for their food. They took their seats and Natasha commenced with her description of how imprinting felt. He stared intently at the young wolf and inhaled, focusing solely on her and ignoring the surrounding world.
As Natasha described how imprinting made her feel, Axel became stricken with a mixture of emotions at the thought of it. How she portrayed it was similar to how he felt about Veronica, though no one knew that. Similar in the fact that there was something missing, something that he believed would connect all the pieces together. It wasn’t right for him to feel this affection for someone so young.
“Tash, is it right for me to think of it? I mean, if I felt like someone was my sun, moon, light, dark. My black and white, is it right? I’m centuries old and I feel this way about someone. I’m not saying who, but I do. Yet something doesn’t seem right. I believe that I love her, that I’m in love with her, all the things you describe I feel for this person. But it feels like the sun may not always rise and set, like there are rainclouds which block the light.” He took a deep breath as he blurted out all he felt for Veronica with one breath, a simple breath that explained all of his feelings.